pretty bitch

ooohh...how i love myself.......

2005-05-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

You are a temptress

ganito ako ka selfish?!

2005-05-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

Desire, the fifth of The Endless, yours is the
realm of lust, want, passion, and, of course,
desire. You tend to be selfish, only concerning
yourself with your own needs, and you have no
scruples about using your absolute draw over
the opposite sex to get your way. You love
being around people, because it's never long
before they give in to your will.

monster from my past.....

2005-05-11T01:22:00.000+08:00

honestly, i don't know what to write. feeling ko kasi nalulunod ako sa dami ng iniisip....

ang magaling kong deceased husband biglang nagparamdam. paksiyet! takot kaya ako sa mumu. meron daw siyang kailangan na data. ano ako, computer? internet? google? ang labo ng gago! at ang kapal ng mukha. instead na i-text ako using his number, gumamit ang gago ng free text sa internet. ano kala niya sa kin tanga?! noon oo tanga ako, bakit ako magrereply sa kanya dun? eh di ako nmn ang na-charge! besides, i don't want to talk to him. AYOKO! paksiyet siya! dadagdag pa siya! grrrr!...

negs o, inaaway ako......

two years na ito......

2005-05-10T06:32:00.000+08:00

i love this song....sobrang bagay........

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

(CHORUS)

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

(CHORUS)

You love me
When you tell me that you love me

happy anniversary mai...i can't believe that despite the differences in lifestyle, opinions, outlook in life, we still managed to stay this long.and i know that this will last forever...let's continue praying for God to give us all the strength and inspire us to love each other more and more.....i love you negs....

adventures @ puerto azul 04.24.05-04.25.05

2005-04-26T10:05:00.000+08:00

for the first time after 1 year and 2 months with this company nagkaroon din ako ng pagkakataon magbakasyon. sosyal ang sis kong si leo, kinidnap kami at dinala sa puerto azul, ternate, cavite. ang meeting place ay sa jg summit @ 11am. 10am pa lang andun na ko. at shempre umiral ang pagiging diva ko. ang ganda ko! pero nang dumating c tyang mario, taena kinabog ang beauty ko! mukha siyang diva, callboy na diva! from jg, diretso kami ng baclaran, dun pa lang nagkawalaan na. eh malay ba namin magpaikot-ikot ng baclaran....eniwei, we rented a van and an fx since there are 16 of us. keri nmn ang biyahe. sa fx ako nakasakay kasama si jm, van, maan, tata, amy at sunshine...ang gulo namin since lahat kami excited pa.pagdating ng puerto azul, mejo naghintay kami for our rooms since leo requested for beach front cottages. so, ayun umiral ang pagiging showwoman ni jm. kahit pawis na sige pa rin sa pagpapatawa. dito namin nakita si finnish hunk.may isa kaming kasama na dapat itago ang pangalan na di makapag-react sa gwapong finnish dahil ayaw ng gulo sa buhay niya.....eniwei, ayoko maxado idetalye ang mga pangyayari, dahil baka basahin ni shari ang blog ko mainggit pa xa....joke, tiny gurl....
pero dahil bitch nga ako, mejo iinggitin ko si shari.para sa mga taong kasama ko sa puerto azul, i will never forget the happy day we spent together......

para kay....

jm - my buddy for the trip.ang ganda pa lang ng katawan mo....MACHO!
sunshine - siyet ka gurl....di ka man lang nag-tan kahit kaunti. at in fairness ilong mo lang ang namula.
roan - salamat dahil di mo maxado ibinulgar ang baho ko during college. miss yah gurl...
tata - ano nga ulit ung 5 lines mo for amy? hehehe...un lang....
amy - inggit ako sa u girl....love ka talaga ni tata....sana si negs ko ganun din ka-vocal about his feelings for me....
ronnie - the only newbie in the group. thanks for giving us the chance to get to know you more...
dette - i'm proud of you for being so strong despite the loneliness na nagyari sa 'yo coz of e___.question: b_____ ba si e____?
iza - idol ito sa katawan!mudel kung mudel!
liyen - kinabog mo kami...promise....
van - mother...salamat sa Biolink noh? i don't have to worry kahit manahin pa ni aaliyah kulay ng tatay niya....
love - bakla talaga tayo....pang-fhm ang picture natin....
tyang - sana lang next time wag ka magpupunta sa ibang resort para di ka huli sa balita....and remember...bawal ang beans, ang hipon, ang pork....
al - i didn't expect na magkakasama tayo ulit.lahat kami gwapong-gwapo sa 'yo....sayang lang pareho tayong babae at in fairness masmaarte ka pa sa kin.at next tym bakla, wag maxado matakaw para di mo namimiss ang fun....
maan - sis, sana pag-isipan mo ang mga bagay-bagay....pero kahit ano pa ang maging decision mo, we still love you....
leo - sis, salamat for giving us the chance to relax and unwind. i hope nag-enjoy ka because it's your day.

at shempre di kumpleto ang post kung wala si aaron.babe, thank you for letting me enjoy this day with my friends, for understanding and for trusting me. i promised you i'll be a good girl, and i am. i enjoyed the day with my PS family, but it would have been totally complete if i enjoyed it with you. you know that i always want to share my happy moments with you.but, at least pinayagan mo ko sumama.i had the chance to recharge....and ngayon mejo nagkalapit na ang mga kulay natin...i like my tan, i think it suits me....

i like this song.....

2005-04-19T09:02:00.000+08:00

i just bought nina's latest cd "nina live". i like most of the songs in the cd but this one struck me most....sabi nga ni aaron, this is our new theme song....

"I Love You, Goodbye" by Celine Dion

Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye

Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye

questions......

2005-04-12T07:37:00.000+08:00

1. Latest CD: usher and evanessence concert in paris dvd
2. Have you ever faked a phone conversation?: whenever i sit in my station, put my headset, log-in and adjust the volume....i take in a schizo-like persona...trying to bullshit people i know i'll never get to meet in my entire life....
3. Best-designed website?: www.borjy.blogspot.com
4. Left hand or Right hand?: righthand
5. Latest Song Craze: my immortal...."but though you're still with me i've been alone all along...."
6. LaSt Song Syndrome: get it right by j. lo
7. Favorite Song: love moves in mysterious ways by nina
8. Do You Pluck your eyebrows?: no...i wax it...chos...
9. What’s your favorite candy/junk food?: smores
10.Favorite TV show?: nada..i don't have tv....
11.Chore You Hate?: LAUNDRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12.Favorite Actor?: johnny depp
13. Instrument you play?: flute?!hehehe....
14. Phobias?: claustrophobia......rapists and mad-serial killers
15. Vegetables you hate to Eat?: okra......
16. Quote you like?: "we don't intend to be famous...we only intend to be human"
17. How much money is in your wallet?: P100.00...i have to see francis...
18. What’s your Mood?: "i'm-tired-of-talking-to-stupid-and-ugly -and-narrow-minded-people...." mood
19. Question you want to ask?: "do you still love me?"
20. Where do you want to go for a vacation?: puerto azul on april 24 with my dear friends...
21. What did you do last night?: wait for aaron and sleep...
22. Favorite Perfume?: arden beauty and elizabeth arden green tea...sis, kelan ka punta bahrain?
23. Which superhero are you?: i want to be one of charlie's angels, preferrably dylan...
24. What is so gay? me....
25. Second Question you want to ask?: "are you tired of this relationship?"
26. Subject you hated in High School?: filipino and math....
27. What is the most disgusting thing you ever had to do?: do it in a place where it's so dirty and smelly....just because i'm supposed to be in love with you, asshole (hey this is not aaron ha!).....
28. What have you lost that you most like to retrieve?: my life....
29. Can you twist your tounge upside down?:no, but i can make it go round and round and round......
30. Third Question you want to ask?: "will you marry me?"

to a dear friend....

2005-04-07T09:11:00.000+08:00

para sa napakabait at understanding kong kaibigan, bagamat late na ito, mula pa rin sa puso.....

maligayang kaarawan....nawa'y lalo ka pang magpakabait at sana invited pa rin ako sa kasal niyo sa hongkong......

happy birthday, nina eirene de guzman.......

mwah......

the subscriber cannot be reached

2005-04-07T08:45:00.000+08:00

i'm out of reach right now....

last april 1, my close friend left for US for good.i didn't even remembered sayin goodbye to her and i still owe her 80pesos.gawd, i'm so bad....but, i know i'll miss her.she's one of those few who accepted and loved me for who i am.she's always there whenever i need her.we've been friends since college.and we still find time to meet though we're all busy working.

that same day is the birthday of my loving grandma,and i also forgot to greet her.damn!anyway, happy birthday nanay!

my officemates are also telling me that i'm so quiet now.they miss my loud self....i don't know why.maybe because i'm so stressed.read my lips....STRESSED!network busy na ko coz of my work.i still talk to stupid obreros who can't buy the product i'm selling.but the pressure to close sales is so grabeh!hirap lang talaga......

oh well.....i'll be releasing tension soon.....after my long break, i'll be back to my normal loud and enetertaining self....pramis!

let me just charge and reload my self......

hala sige gamitin ang blagispat......

2005-03-18T02:21:00.000+08:00

when you can't say somethings in front of that person, we used diaries before to pour our angst, our love...our hearts out. but with the turn of the century (naks!) we now have the blogspots....

at ngaun nga, two of my friends ang nagsagutan gamit ang blogs nila. ayoko na sana patulan. pero dahil pakielamera ako....this entry is for both of you....

i always believe that whatever my friends and loved ones want to do i'll support them all the way. kahit na alam ko nang in the end it may make or break them, keri lang. basta kung san sila masaya, dun din ako. if sa huli nagtagumpay sila i'll rejoice with them. but, if in the end, they realize na mali sila, nasaktan sila o nasira ang buhay nila dahil sa ginawa nila, i'll be there to help them pick-up the pieces of their lives' puzzle, one by one....but it doesn't mean that i'm a bad friend dahil hinayaan ko silang masaktan. i'll give them the pros and cons of what they are about to do. because that's the only thing i can do for them. buhay pa rin nila yon. sila pa rin ang bahalang gumawa ng desisyon. at least i've done my share. and i know whatever will happen in the end, it's still a fruitful experience for them. it'll help them grow and learn from it....

so, for my two dear friends....eto lang ang masasabi ko.... bahala kayo sa buhay nyo....

reflections....

2005-03-01T02:14:00.000+08:00

a lot of things are happening now in my life, my friends' life and my family's life........
last sunday, i met up with my two kids, albrecht and nika.i haven't seen them for more than three months.they grown so big without me enjoying it.but, i'm really lucky to be blessed by two angels.they never forgot me and they know in their hearts that i'm their mom.grabe!ang saya ko kasi naglambing sobra ung 2 kids ko........

sobrang miss ko na ung old days sa floor.ang dami na ulit kasi nmin.i miss the downtimes, the laughter, the sharing of the story of our lives......iba kasi talaga ung naging samahan ng vet reps.we became brothers and sisters.....the DR family became our second family.minsan nga nagiging guardian angel na rin nmin ang isa't-isa minsan konsensya....hay naku, guys, miss ko na talaga kau......

and last but not the least.....i'm not sure kung ano ba ang nangyayari sa min ni aaron.i know that our love is becoming deeper that's why we're so at ease with each other.but i can feel that we're having the same fear that in a way this long distance set-up is drawing us apart.i know that he's not saying anything about it.but, i can feel it with his actions and words.hmmm....i think kailangan na talaga namin ng quality time na kaming dalawa lang.......

somethings change...somethings remain the same.......you just have to be ready to face whatever comes your way.......

gusto ko lang maging biatch.....

2005-02-22T03:30:00.000+08:00

DR batch 7 & 8....

para sa mga newbies ng DR...welcome......as you guys might have noticed ang konti lang ng vet reps isama mo pa ang mga part timers....kaya sobrang close na namin sa isa't-isa...some of you might be threatened, others amazed, others challenged....my only suggestion is this....we've in this team for a year now....kami ang institution ng DR.we've proven our worth that's why you, newbies are here.....kumbaga nga eh pawis at dugo na namin ang nakapuhunan dito.importante sa amin ang DR.i'm not trying to threaten you guys.ang sa kin lang, you also have to prove your worth to us.some of you are really friendly, we appreciate that.ung iba pasaway, beware kayo kapag kami ang sumalo ng mga kalokohan niyo.ung iba nmn feeling, gusto pa ata kami ang makisama, well, asa ka pa?

we're glad that nadadagdagan ang pamilya namin.pero hindi kami nandito para kami pa ang magpumilit makisama sa inyo.prove your worth to us before we welcome you with open arms.this me, the pretty biatch queen speaking.this is my opinion.baka may mainis ok lang.pero knowing my co-vet reps most of them will agree with me.....

newbies welcome to my domain.......

pretty biatch

maraming salamat po.....

2005-02-17T05:47:00.000+08:00

sa lahat ng bumati sa kin last birthday ko.maraming salamat!touched ako.....sa mga humabol sa feb 15, central tym asteg!ang saya ng birthday ko kasi i spent it with special people.c aaron of course.may surprise roses pa.at sobrang sweet nya...grabe!cloud 9 ito!and to my PS family, thanks!sa mga vet reps na super sweet, thank you....sa mga newbies, salamat din!dette tnx sa gift!kay liyen sa starbux gc.....sa closest friends ko, salamat.....kay francis and meeko, i know pagod na kayo but you were still able to have dinner and cosmo and coffee with me....meeko, salamat sa regalo!kay jhoane at nina.....kahit di kayo nakarating dahil sakitin kayo ok lang quits na tayo......sa mga pinsan ko and sisters, thanks for remembering......to mong and paola, my old friends thanks!to all the judges thank you.and to the other nominees, i want to share this award with you, chos!

negs, thank you.....and don't worry, in time i know everything will be all right......thank you for taking care of me and aaliyah, for the very long string of patience and understanding, and most of all for the love you're showering me everyday of our lives......i love you........

it's my birthday....

2005-02-12T06:41:00.000+08:00

i'm turning 23 in 3 days time. excited ako coz i asked aaron to surprise me. pero at the same time kinakabahan. whenever a person turns one year older that means she must mature together with her aging. lalo na sa case ko. there's no turning back. kailangan ko na harapin ung mga gulo sa buhay ko. kailangan ko nang panindigan ung mga responsibilidad ko. with aaliyah that's no problem, because aaron is always there to support me. pero kay albrecht at kay nika, sa totoo lang ayoko makausap ung tatay nila, but, i don't have any other choice. kung gusto kong maging masaya sila, i have to act now. and of course, by april wala na kong warning so dapat ma-promote na ko. DAPAT! i know i can make it. i have my friends, my family, even aaron's family, aaron ang of course God to support me. i still have to decide on one thing that i know will change my life forever.....pero mahabang panahon ang kailangan ko for that.....basta right now, i wanna enjoy my day.......

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRETTY A!

to a dear friend.....

2005-02-12T06:31:00.000+08:00

maan, congrats miss QA! am so froud op you!!!!!!!

lab yah!

i got this from my email

2005-02-10T03:50:00.000+08:00

The question is asked,

"Is there anything more beautiful in life than a young couple clasping hands and pure hearts in the path of marriage?Can there be anything more beautiful than young love?"

And the answer is given.

"Yes, there is a more beautiful thing. It is the spectacle of an old man and an old woman finishing their journey together on that path. Their hands are gnarled, but still clasped; their faces are seamed, but still radiant; their hearts are physically bowed and tired, but still strong with love and devotion for one another. Yes, there is a more beautiful thing than young love.Old love."

~Author Unknown~

somewhere out there .......

2005-02-04T02:31:00.000+08:00

i heard the song, somewhere out there earlier.naiyak ako.this song always reminds me of albrecht and nika.ang tagal ko na sila hindi nakikita.it's been 3 months now.kinamusta ko sila kanina sa sister ko.c albrecht daw nawawalan ng focus sa school.i know i have to blame myself why this is happening to them.why they have to stay with their irresponsible, supposed-to-be-dad.....nakakalungkot because they're stuck with that sonofab?#@%!minsan iniisip ko, bakit nagkaganito.actually most of the time nagsisisi ako.but, whenever i see aaron and aaliyah, naiisip ko, i have to give up something to have both of them.nagkataon lang na that something is albrecht and nika.i know that i will forever be responsible to whatever will happen to my two kids.and i would have to live with my conscience forever bugging me about it.haay, negs i need you now.i need your shoulder to cry on and your arms to protect me from this pain.......

lovin you.....

2005-01-22T02:38:00.000+08:00

masaya ako dahil di na maxado ang selos ko sa kanya.siguro kasi nilinaw mo na ang lahat sa akin.alam ko na ngayon na hindi mo xa papatulan.ewan ko rin.pero feeling ko my nagbago.something happened to make this love even deeper.it made me trust you more.maybe because of the way you are also changing.you're becoming sweeter.hindi na rin tayo madalas mag-away.negs,sana ganito palagi.ayoko na nung palagi tayong nagtatalo.minsan din kasi di na healthy for us.nakakapagod na.i always tell you that i love you so much.and i know you feel the same.and i'm so thankful to God that He gave me you.you're all i need to continue living each day of my life....because you are the air that i breathe.....

10 things i learned for the week

2005-01-17T04:12:00.000+08:00

i'll be having my rest day myamya lang.marami akong na-realize sa pagpasok ko sa linggong ito.

1. pwede pala mag-sabay mag-leave ang magkapareho ng shift.wag lang ang pareho ng block.basta ba puyat ang mag-aassist sa 'yo.
2. life is really fair.meron akong written warning kaya di ako pwede mag-apply for sup trainee.pero ung mga walang warning ayaw mag-apply kasi ayaw sa klase ng responsibility na kasama ng promotion.therefore, God is watching us.
3. mura lang pala ang C2 kung hindi mo ito bibilhin sa mini-stop.dati P19.00 ang bili ko.nung nag-grocery ako sa SM, nakita ko P15.00 lang, 4 bottles ang binili ko.
4. mahal ng diyos si aaron.basta.....sa kanya kampi si Lord.
5. laos pa rin ang security ng JG.pero kawawa ka kung babae ka na maganda ka pa.ung mga guards gagawa ng paraan para magtagal ka sa harap nila.i'm wearing ng wrong blouse today.nag-piyesta sila.
6. nothing is permanent in life.temporary lang kami sa bulok at mabahong building na ito.kapag dumating na ung mga new agents ewan ko kung saan naman kami papadparin ng hangin.
7. kahit pala sa call center ka nagtratrabaho, may possibility na bobo ka pa rin sa english."Hi, can u please forward my phase lift for Dec. 15 here in CC1 EP-OR QA."asteeg di ba?buti na lang sa peoplesupport ako nagtratrabaho at graduate ako ng UP.
8. si jane pala may verbal warning na because of over-aux.jane aftercall!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
9. accdg to jane, ang mga mayayaman na pinoy kuripot.ang totoong maraming pera ay ang mga intsik.
10. "i am not a loser because i did not quit trying."

downtime pastime

2005-01-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

kanina pa kami ni maan, kinakareer ang pagtake ng quiz sa quizfarm.com.ang saya kasi halos lahat ng results sinasabi maganda ako at isang die-hard romantic.pero di ko kinaya, instead na one of the 4 hobbits ang makakasama ko, ang lumabas sa screen si smeagol.hassle!pero still dahil downtime pa at ayoko mag-basa ng book, career ang quizfarm.com......

i think.....

2005-01-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

You scored as Erato. You are Erato. The muse of love poetry, you view the world through rose colored glasses. Appearance is very important to you, and you are considered to be the most beautiful of all nine muses.

Erato

100%

Euterpe

88%

Terpischore

88%

Thalia

81%

Calliope

69%

Melpomene

69%

Clio

50%

Urania

50%

Polyhymnia

44%

Which of the Greek Muses are you?
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kung ako ay isang member ng friends, ako si ...

2005-01-12T22:18:00.000+08:00

You scored as Rachel. Popular and stylish you're Rachel. You can be a little vain at times but your heart is in the right place.

Rachel

95%

Joey

80%

Phoebe

60%

Chandler

60%

Monica

30%

Ross

30%

Which Friend are you?
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sosyal na fairy daw ako

2005-01-12T21:34:00.000+08:00

You scored as A Too Astral Faerie. This is a common obsession for faeries, its the equivalent of 'prep' in human soceity. But instead of loving hair, clothes shoes etc, they admire stars, skies and nebulae. Well done, your a fashionable for a faerie lol. Mystic!

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A Too Astral Faerie

80%

A Too Evil Faerie

70%

A Too Silly Faerie

70%

A Too Lazy Faerie

65%

A Too Sweet Faerie

55%

A Too Kinky Faerie

50%

A Too Serious Faerie

45%

A Too Sporty Faerie

35%

A Too Depressed Faerie

30%

Which Dysfunctional Faerie are You?
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2005-01-10T05:45:00.000+08:00

Your Icecream Flavour is...Neopolitan!

You aren't satisfied with just one flavor. They say variety is the spice of life and this shines through in your Ice cream of choice! Just don't eat all the chocolate and leave the strawberry and vanilla behind!

What is your Icecream Flavour?

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2005-01-10T05:42:00.000+08:00

In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Not eat cloned meat.

Get your resolution here

happy monthsary

2005-01-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

happy monthsary mai.grabe!21 months na taung magkasama.1 year and 9 months....i know we're just starting.mahaba pa ang lalakbayin ng relationship natin.shempre kasi forever na 'to.even death will not do as part.mai, mahal na mahal kita.alam kong alam mo na yan.sabi nga ng nasira kong asawa, ikaw na at si aaliyah ang pamilya ko ngaun.may mg bagay that's hindering us to fully become a family.but i know that it doesn't really matter.as long as we love each other alam ko that we can make it.i know that you also love me, you may have a different way of showing it but still i know that you do.mahal na mahal natin ang isa't isa so keber sa kanilang lahat.wala nang makakahadlang sa 'tin.habang-buhay na ito......this is it!

...

2005-01-06T01:33:00.001+08:00

ayoko na mag-emote.............

emote..........

2005-01-06T01:33:00.000+08:00

hassle......

2005-01-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

kahapon tinanong ako ng sister leo ko kung sakali bang patulan ko si jeff ay matutuloy ba un sa having an affair with him.sabi ko...oo.ako kasi ung tipo ng tao na gustong tinetest ung limits niya.at ayokong masaktan si aaron.ayokong dahil sa kalokohan ko magkahiwalay kami.mahal na mahal ko silang dalawa ni aaliyah.kaya forget about jeff or any other guys for that matter.for a change magiging faithful naman ako.papatunayan ko kay aaron na pwede niya akong pagkatiwalaan.hayaan na lang natin si jeff na i-admire ako.pang-boost ng ego ko.hehehe......
actually, i don't know what to write tonight. lahat lang tao sa floor ay may kaniya-kaniyang ginagawa.at for the first time, di kami magkatabi ni leo.kaya ang trip ko ngaun......hulaan kung ano ang ginagawa ng mga tao......
van - of course she's suppose to be doing some supervisor stuff.mag-check ng cms, stats.appraisals ng mga direct agents niya.pero wag ka, somewhere at the back of her mind....iniisip niya kung ano ang susuotin niya sa friday...........hehehe...........
maan - hay naku busy sa personal windows niya at pagtext sa kung sino man ung katext niya.malamang if it's not the EX, it's mr. B.
aries - ayun, nag daydream about sweet things....un lang....
leo - busy sa paghahanda ng parangal para hall of famer na si tyang
liyen - busy sa pag-iisip ng plan pano niya mapaghihiwalay ung crush niya at ung girlet nito.
the rest of the guys, they're either busy sleeping or they're just not that talkative talaga.....hassle!nanlalata talaga ako ngaun......

hindi ko alam bakit ko pinatulan ito......

2005-01-01T21:24:00.000+08:00

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LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATRE:
three.ung korean horror film

WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW:
harry potter the goblet of fire

FAVORITE BOARDGAME:
scrabble, flames sa blackboard?

FAVORITE MAGAZINE:
cosmo.

FAVORITE SMELLS:
arden beauty, elizabeth arden green tea, victoria's secret starwberries and champagne, johnson's heaven (kapag walang pera)

COMFORT FOOD:
pansit canton, maki, kare-kare, boyfriend ko........

FAVORITE SOUNDS:
Plak plak.

WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD:
ung magmakaawa ka sa atensyon ng taong mahal mo

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF
WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING:
siyet may call!

FAVORITE FAST FOOD:
MCDo, jollibee at kfc

FUTURE CHILD’S NAME:
ngaun may 3 anak na ko: albrecht heinz (one of hitler's generals, dahil nazi freak tatay niya), nina katherine (from my two girl friends, names) and aaliyah (matagal naming pinag-iisipan 'to ng daddy niya)

FINISH THIS STATEMENT: "IF I HAD
A LOT OF MONEY, I WOULD…":
keep myself inside the ouse dahil takot akong makidnap

DO YOU DRIVE FAST:
faster beybeh!

DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL:
no!with a live animal na madungis...YES!.

STORMS – COOL OR SCARY:
cool...masarap mag-sex habang malakas ang ulang, kumukulog at kumkidlat

WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR:
a top-down sleek black Porche

FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK:
cosmo stawberry, kapag wala, san mig lyt o kaya black russian

FINISH THIS STATEMENT, "IF I HAD THE
TIME, I WOULD LOVE TO…":
spend it with my three kids and aaron

DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI:
broccoli?ano to?!

IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR
WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE:
red, puta red

GLASS HALF-EMPTY OR FULL:
full

FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH:
swimming at diving male division din lyk my sis leo

WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED:
another bed

TOILET PAPER/PAPER TOWEL –
OVER OR UNDER:
girl on top

bitter melon

2004-12-31T21:56:00.001+08:00

bitter ako.....oo.....bitter ako.bagong taon andito ako sa opisina at may headset sa ulo.tama ba un?it's my first new year's eve outside my biological home.ang lungkot pala.tapos wala rin c aaron.ung mga taong gusto kong makasama to welcome the new year are all not here.well, at least i have my PS family with me.kung wala c sis leo siguro lahat kami tahimik lang at nagmumuni-muni.
nung bumaba ako para mag-yosi, ang saya ng paligid.almost everywhere i look there are fireworks.all i could hear are firecrackers.everybody are celebrating except us callcenter agents, who have to come to work and answer to the needs of our foreign customers.
bitter ako...oo....sino naman ang hindi.kahit sinong tao naman ang ilagay mo sa posisyon ko magiging bitter talaga.
pero come january 15, i'll be as sweet as cotton candy.siyempre nmn may worth ung pagiging bitter ko.ilang holiday pays ung makukuha ko noh!kaya for all those people who are working tonight, may they be call center agents, doctors, nurses, police, employees.....lahat ng taong nagtatrabaho ngaung gabi para magkaroon ng pera...come next payday guys....it'll be pay back time.....tau nmn ang magcecelebrate...........

my new year's resolution.........

2004-12-31T21:56:00.000+08:00

new year's resolution?!what the? ano un?hehehe......sanay na ko gumawa ng new yr's resoluxn.every year na lang ata...pero after a few days nakakalimutan ko rin....mahirap magbago lalo na if u rily don't mean to change.kesyo you'll go on a diet, stop smokin, shopping, drinking, flirting....start saving money, stop being so bratinella etcetera, etcetera......mahirap magbago....nakakatakot kasi ibig sabihin may mga bagay na nakasanayan mo na, at home ka na dun tapos kailangan mo bitawan dahil hindi un mabuti sa u.kagaya ng yosi....adik na ko dun...naprapraning ako kapag hindi ako nakapagyosi sa loob ng 6 hours.pero dahil it's bad for my health, i have to stop....wat if gusto ko mamatay ng maaga?!
pero may mga bagay naman na kailangan mo talaga baguhin dahil ginusto mo na finally.just like flirting....dati basta gwapo at mukhang easy kari na.susunggaban ko na agad!dahil maganda ako, kampante ako sa sarili ko.BUT NOW!!!!dahil mahal ko si aaron, di ko xa sasaktan.ayoko na mawala xa sa kin.kaya goodbye na sa paglalandi!yun willing akong baguhin.kung sa bagay it's about time.nahanap ko yung taong ka-compatible ko sa lahat ng bagay.bakit pa ko maghahanap ng iba.ryt?left?
so here's my new year's resolution for 2005:
1. FORGET THE WORD FLIRTING AND ALWAYS REMEMBER THE WORD FAITHFULNESS....for short, arlene....matakot ka sa karma....
2.FIX YOUR LIFE'S SCATTERED PUZZLE......mahirap ito.unang-una, kailangan ko nang harapin ang mga taong nasaktan ko at sasaktan ulit dahil paninindigan ko na ang pagpili ko kay aaron.i need to talk to spencer and tell him that it's really over, we both have to let go.next my mom.i have to explain to her why i chose aaron over her, my family and my 2 kids.and of course, my 2 angels, albrecht and nika.i have to start explaining to them that their mom now has a new family.mahirap coz i know permanent ang effect sa kanila.pero i have to do my best to avoid hurting them more by depriving them of having a mom.
3. TAMA NA ANG PAGIGING BRATINELLA!alam ko arlene, all this time ganyan ka na talaga.pero bad yan.you believe in karma.....maging masa ka nmn for a change.....correct ba ko sis leo?
4. ............wala na ko maisip.....almost perfect na ko eh!
basta for me, these are the things i need to change and i want to change.madali lang nmn eh kasi i have the strength and inspiration to do it......kaya for the year 2005, my life's motto is.......WORLD PEACE.......

when i see you smile aaron..........

2004-12-30T01:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I wonder If I'd ever make it through
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue
Cause sometimes it seems like this world's closing in on me
And there's no way of breaking free
and then I see you reach for me
Sometimes I wanna give up wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
And then I see you baby
and everything's alright, everything's alright
When I see you smile I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile
Baby when I see you smile at me
Baby there's nothing in this world that could ever do
What the touch of your hand can do
It's like nothing that I ever knew
And when the rain is falling, I don't feel it
Cause you're here with me now
I wanna ask you baby
It's all I¹ll ever need, All I'll ever need
When I see you smile I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile baby
Baby when I see you smile at me
Sometimes I wanna give up I wanna give in
I wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
And everything's alright
Hey everything's alright
It's alright
When I see you smile I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything
When I see you smile I see a ray of light
Oh I see it shining right through the rain
When I see you smile Yeah I can face the world
Oh you know I can do anything now
When I see you smile Oh yeah
Baby when I see you smile
Smile at me

i don't want to lose you

2004-12-29T22:40:00.000+08:00

natakot ako...akala ko magkakahiwalay na tayo.....nagulat din ako sa sarili ko coz i was ready to give up sa relationship natin.honestly, ayoko na sana talaga umuwi pa sa bahay niyo.nag-iisip na rin ako ng lilipatan dito sa makati.kasi talagang pagod na ko.nakakapagod na ung palagi na lang tayong nag-aaway.ang gusto ko lang naman magkasama tayo as much as possible.dahil nalulungkot talaga ako mag-isa dito sa makati.ikaw nmn ang gusto mo magkaroon ng time for yourself.meaning lalabas ka at magbabarkada.may point ako may point ka.pero sino ang tama?pareho tayo.so sino ang dapat mag-give way?ako lang?tayong dalawa.ang iniisip mo pinagdududahan kita.oo,minsan.pero madalas, naiingit ako sa friends mo.kasi gusto mo sila ang kasama mo kesa sa kin.alam ko at the end of the day you will always come home to me.pero anong oras na yun?ung oras na mahimbing na ang tulog ko?sobrang miss lang kita aaron kaya gusto ko palagi tayo magkasama.the next issue, ung way how you show your love to me.ganun ba talaga ung masasaktan ako?kasi ganun na ung pinanggalingan ko na relationship.halos ikahiya ko na ang sarili ko.i feel so degraded.i don't want to feel that way again.and you should not make me go through that kind of suffering again.please negs.i know you love me.and i know ganun ka talaga.kahit sa nanay mo, kay aaliyah.mai, i only want you to make me feel loved.by taking care of me and be sweet to me.mababaw lang akong tao.sobrang dali kong mapasaya.i know sometimes i could become very bratty.lalo na kapag may topak ako.i'm really sorry about that.i know sometimes i'm stretching your patience to its limit.that's why i'm so thankful that all this time you've been very patient with me.now to cut this blabber short.isa lang ang gustong kong sabihin.........i love you, i need you, and whatever it takes...I WILL MAKE THIS RELATIONSHIP WORK!!!!!!!!

my xmas

2004-12-26T23:40:00.000+08:00

merry christmas.............
hmmm......merry nga ba?i think besides the first xmas without my father, ito na ang pinakamalungkot kong pasko......bakit?hindi ko rin alam......i spent it with the most important man in my life and our angel............dapat masaya na ko di ba?pero hindi pa rin eh.............maraming kulang.my deceased asshole of a husband went to our house.kaya i wasn't able to go there coz i'm sure magkakagulo lang.sayang andun pa naman c albrecht and nika.pero ayoko nmn malaman ng magaling nilang ama na nakipagkita ulit ako or else baka pati parents ko pagbawalan na niya makipagkita dun sa 2 bata.ayaw pa nmn nung mga bata sa kanya kasi wala siyang kwentang ama.......tapos yung boyfriend ko nmn di ko alam kung talagang nananadya.gusto ko lang nmn magkasama kami ngaung pasko, nilayasan pa ko.at wala man lang kahit isang surprise.kahit na gulatin lang niya ko ng isang smack sa pisngi kaso wala.oh well, i shouldn't have expected anything great.he's not really that sweet. and at least natulog kami magkayakap.for me that's enough......all in all malungkot ang pasko coz ang daming wala.........but it's my fault why this happened.i'm just thankful coz i still have my life to live and kahit papano i was able to spread love last xmas and i'll do that for the rest of my life.........

love, love, LOVE

2004-12-24T01:46:00.000+08:00

my friends and their love problems:

1. mrs. ghie-man

etong friend ko na 'to magulo utak.may partner na nmn siya eh makikipag-one night stand pa rin kay ghie-man.ewan ko ba.honestly gurl, di nmn siya kagwapuhan.at in fairness ang lakas ng loob niya to ditch you.siguro kasi nakulitan din sa 'yo.
hay naku gurl....pero,tama ung ginawa mo coz he is so not worth it.siya nmn ang nawalan at hindi ikaw.alam kong mejo high maintenance din ng relationship mo ngaun coz masmagulo utak ng partner mo.ang masasabi ko lang, kung ako nga kasal na nakakalas pa rin.ikaw pa kaya?

2. my twin sister

sis, as i've told you baka nmn u're just being challenged coz he's playin hard to get?magtetext kau tapos kapag u're makin ur moves na parang bulang nawawala.i know that the person is worth it.kahit na hundreds of thousands na ang nauubos mo sa kanya HE IS WORTH IT.sana kasi naging nice ka the whole year para binigay sa u ni santa ung wish mo.pero sis mukhang sobrang keber ang lalaking ito sa 'yo.kung kaya mong habaan ang pasensya mo sige tuloy ka lang.pero if di mo na kaya anjan nmn i covrter eh.at cute nmn siya.isipin mo na lang park 'yan......

3. ms. pink-blooded

gurl honestly di ko alam ang problem mo sa ex mo.pero sa naririnig ko sa mga kwento mo sa sis ko, jerk siya.so gurl, he does not deerve you.remember this....there are many birds in the air, fishes in the sea and men in this world..........connectment?ewan.....

4. ms. cosmo gurl

gurl i am so proud of you.tama lang na nakipag-break ka sa isang boyfriend na walang tiwala sa 'yo.he should not keep a person from her happiness and her growth.siguro nga cosmo gurl ka kasi kaya di niya kinaya powers mo.go gurl!!!!!!!!!!!

5. vivian velez

friend, ok lang na mag-appreciate ng ibang beauty.ako rin nmn ganun.and i know you know your limitations.you know nmn di ba?

6. joey_jolina

ikaw bruha ka!i swear sasabunutan kita kahit ur vagina is showing!kung sex lang ang habol niyo ni jojo sa isa't-isa dapat un lang.wala nang pera involved.i know galante ka pero nmn, ang laking tao ni jojo para ikaw pa ang magsustento sa mga iba niyang pangnangailangan!i'm sos sorry if i'm this blunt to you pero friend kita ayokong may nagsasamantala sa kabaitan mo.at kahit na bading ka, i think the rule of faithfulness still applies to you.kung talagang mahal mi si ian and you care for him, siya na lang.i think he satisfies all your needs nmn....

mga friends, i know na iisipin niyo na sobra nmn ako,parang di ako nagkakaproblem kay aaron.oo, medalas din na nag-aaway kami.madalas din nasasaktan ako sa relationship namin.sabi nga nila, minsan ang galing mo magbigay ng love advices to other people, pero sa sarili mo di mo nmn ma-apply.........mahal ko lang kau at ayokong nakikitang nasasaktan o naaagrabyado kayo...........

santa.......

2004-12-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

dear santa,

i know i've been very bad yesterday.kaya nga po mags0s0rry ako sa inyo.eh kasi nmn po itong c badet di marunong magsabi n kukunin pala niya ung guess paperbag ko.and besides, santa, somebody is still playin games with me.nakita ko nga po ung takip ng container ko pero saan?sa loob ng drawer sa pantry?tama ba un?pero santa sige dahil love ko kau at meron akong matinding wish this christmas sorry po ulit.

p.s. still paksyet sa taong nang-aasar sa 'kin......damn!it's so hard to change!

pretty a

2004-12-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

PUTA KA!KUNG SINO KA MAN!KUNG GUSTO MO KO INISIN PWES SIGE PANALO KA DAHIL NAIINIS AKO!I SWEAR WHEN THE TIME I DISCOVER WHOEVER SONOFABITCH YOU ARE…….SASAMPALIN KITA DITO SA HARAP NG BUONG DR TEAM……NOBODY PLAY GAMES WITH ME……..I’LL GIVE YOU THE WORST TIME OF YOUR LIFE!AT JOLOGS KA!KUKUHANIN MO LANG MGA GAMIT KO UNG MAPAGTATAWANAN KA PA!YOU ARE SO FUCKING CHEAP!FIRST UNG DUMEX PAPERBAG KO!MY GOODNESS PATI BA NMN PAPERBAG NG GATAS PAPATUISN MO.AT HUMIRIT KA PA ULIT, UNG GUESS PAPERBAG NAMAN!AT NGAYON UNG TAKIP NG CONTAINER KO!BAKIT NAMAN OF ALL THINGS UNG TAKIP LANG SANA DINAMAY MO NA RIN PATI CONTAINER AT TINIDOR!

ETONG SA ‘YO! PAKSYET KA!

P.S.SANTA SORRY HA!NANG-AASAR EH.RESBAK LANG AKO……

wish list

2004-12-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

Dear santa,

I know I’ve been so naughty this year, but hopefully this letter will make-up for it. For the last 19 days for the year 2004, I’ll try to be nice, for a change…….for how many years now, I always tell myself that I wanna change for good.pero nothing happens pagdating ng 4th day of January every year I’m back to being bad.so what’s the use of having new year’s resolution?wala lang para lang may masabi ka na nagkaron ka,at one point for that year. So pano ako makabawi sa mga kalokohang ginawa ko for this year, I wanna start by saying sorry.

Pero, wait lang.....masyado yatang madaming tao ang nagawan ko ng kasalanan this year.so sa inyong lahat sorry…..

Santa isa lang ang wish ko for Christmas…………ang maging maayos na ang lahat………..

Pretty A

rememberin and missin u.........

2004-12-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

"If You're Not The One" by Daniel Bedingfield
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know whatthe future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it,
I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it,
I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it,
I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

soulmates

2004-10-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

soulmates aren't hatched - they grow.

you make a connection, build a relationship,

and then you realize, 'this is my soulmate.'

Verse from I Corinthians :13

Love is patient,

Love is kind

It does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud

It is not rude,

it is not self seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil

but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects,

always trusts,

always hopes,

always perseveres

Love never fails

love

2004-10-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

yes love..........the thing that makes us swoon with so much happiness and breaks our heart the following second.all of us experience this evryday of our lives.from our family, friends, kids, siblings, from our special one, from God.it's great to feel loved and to share love.for me it the essence of being human.it is the secret to long-lasting happiness and peace of mind.but, part of loving is accepting the person for who they are and all their extra baggages.it means sacrificing somethings to be able to share it to the people we love.but, what you'll get in exchange for that scarifice is the best thing you'll ever get........love.bilog ang mundo, at pagmamahal ang nagpapa-ikot dito...............;-)

I'M SO EXCITED AND I JUST CAN'T HIDE IT!!!!!!!!!!

2004-10-17T03:12:00.000+08:00

SHUCKS!
i'm so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!
magkikita na kami ng mahal ko!!!!!!!!!!!!!excited ako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

pinay psycho,thanks for visiting my blog!
let's go girl power!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHEN IT RAINS IT POURS

2004-09-18T01:31:00.000+08:00

tangina!when it rain it pours talaga.bad trip!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!unang-una kulang ang sweldo ko!tapos may naggugulo ng buhay ko!!!!!!!!at higit sa lahat malayo ako sa mahal ko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!tama ba un?paksiyet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ang ganda ng first blog ko.=)